ill tell you, and you might not understand, or you might think im even weirder than you thought before, or creepier than you thought before, but im growing. im learning. im different.
i used to wear a size small shirt and size 32 pants like 3 years ago, but i lacked discpline and was unable to say no to more food with calvins mom because without discpline, self-control can only get you so far. i can say no once or twice, but in the end, self-control can give in... and it did. more often than not, i lost each battle at the table.
i used to get great grades in school, but i lacked discpline and was unable to keep focused on my studies, opting instead to cut school and hang out with friends. this trend started sophomore year of high school and continued until i didnt reapply at long beach. i even failed a class there.
i lacked discpline.
if i continue to lack that which i need, then my son will never learn to be able to break bad habits. my son will have to learn one day that he lacks discpline. but will he have the strength of will to overcome that deficit and gain discpline? i am afraid he may not have been taught the necessary skills to do as such. and that lies with me. though the time has passed when i should have been teaching him these things, the time is now to start. quality over quantity. it matters to him that i regain the discpline i lost so long ago.
caloo, caleigh, we'll eat today, like cabbages... and kings. but i'll probably just get back into vegetarianism.